the sun came out today at 3:30pm
today is better. my brain is deciding to fire off the correct chemicals and i'm feeling happier again. i just wish my brain would start firing off the chemicals that make me feel drunk. at any rate life is more "take-able" when bi-polar disorder is not on the moodswing agenda. and being bi-polar doesn't make anyone crazy...although some people are better off on drugs. but a strong person can and WILL do things on their own, without those addicting and mind-bending drugs. i figure, one addiction at a time.
it's really quite an amazing thing. i could actually FEEL myself getting out of a funk i was in last night. and it wasn't like anything really nice, cool, or exciting happened to cheer me up. it honestly felt like all of a sudden the sun came out and all the dark and yucky colors lit up to cheerful tones--just like the feeling i get when i walk off the parking lot at the beach and into the sand looking out at the big expanse of water that we call Lake Michigan. ahhhhhhh! the sun! happiness and contentment for a few hours. i feel like i'm 11 years old again, well, maybe not that young. good stuff.
Current Mood: 
peaceful 
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